Thursday, March 24, 2011

" It is impossible to fall out of love. Love is such a powerful emotion, that once it envelops you it does not depart. True love is eternal. If you think that you were once in love, but fell out of it, then it wasn't love you were in. There are no 'exit' signs in love, there is only an 'on' ramp.” --unknown

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

     So, I was trying to find the perfect picture to go along with "Recovery" or "Overcoming" Not a whole lot of choices... :(  Well, what I have been working on for a while has been focusing on my recovery.  I was asked what my definition of recovery is & how do I get to serenity. This was almost a week ago I was asked this.  Sadly, it took me awhile to define what MY definition is: having a stable foundation while continued growth mentally, emotionally & spiritually.  How do I get to serenity: maintaining a stable foundation & sober enviroment, Having inner peace & honesty.  I'm sure there is more to obtaining "serenity" I'll discover it as I continue down the road. 
     I've heard this saying more than once "To live is to suffer, to survive is to find the meaning of suffering." -Friedrich Miescher  I now know the meaning of this.  Either one can learn from their mistakes and grow into a better person the person they are meant to be OR they can just nod their head & hear it, but, if you do not have the true meaning for this you will not succeed.  It is the stone cold truth.  I'm very happy with myself & how much growth I have done in the last 8-9 months.  I take it all day by day, that's all I can do & I'm ok with this.  :)
Recovery...I can't wait to get a chance to read this book <3
What fills your heart....

Monday, March 14, 2011

“We are shaped by our thoughts; we become what we think. When the mind is pure, joy follows like a shadow that never leaves.” –Buddha

Saturday, March 12, 2011

Vultures - John Mayer Trio

I love the shyt out of this song & it holds a very dear meaning to me...

Friday, March 11, 2011


"Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment." -Buddha

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Oh Great Spirit,
Whose voice I hear in the winds,

And whose breath gives life to all the world,
hear me!
I am small and weak,
I need your strength and wisdom.

Let me walk in beauty, and make my eyes
ever behold the red and purple sunset.
Make my hands respect the things you have made
and my ears sharp to hear your voice.

Make me wise so that I may understand the
things you have taught my people.
Let me learn the lessons you have hidden
in every leaf and rock.
I seek strength, not to be greater than my brother,
but to fight my greatest enemy – myself.
Make me always ready to come to you with
clean hands and straight eyes.
So when life fades, as the fading sunset
my spirit may come to you
without shame.

- lakota chief yellow lark - 1887

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Monday, March 7, 2011

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Wishlist or wishful thinking.... haven't decided yet ;)

a tid bit of moi...

Well, This is my first "blog,"  I feel like there is a lot of pressure to make this one impressive.  Let's see where to start... It's 1am, I'm wide awake... Tomorrow is a big day for me.  Time to "face to firing squad" so to speak.  2011 is so far a great year for me.  The progress I have made in the last 9 months has been remarkable, it's such a shame that I had to go thru all that to get to where I am... do I regret it?  I can't say I do, because what if all that stuff never happened?  I would still be the same person, in the same boat, floating thru life down the wrong path.  I'm thankful for all that has happened, including the bad... it has made me a better person.  I have always thought & believed that "people don't change"  I now know from personal experience that, yes... a person is capable of change... With this all said, I have been inspired to write a book, the feedback has been very positive.  :)  I have also been inspired to become a counselor of some sort.  The details of these things will come in future blogs...